At the beginning of April, I wrote a post about A Day in the Life Of a Book Blogger, partly because I wanted to see just how much time I dedicate to reading, blogging and social media connected to my blog. And since that post, I seem to have lost a little bit of my mojo - I'm reading less, posting less and spending far less time than I ever have in visiting other blogs or chatting on Twitter - and it's forced me into a revaluation of everything.
Yes, real life is busier than ever with work, summer is coming and making me want to go out and enjoy the (patchy) sunshine and I'm also trying to plan a massive trip back to Australia, but I've also been actively avoiding the things I'm most passionate about - reading and talking books.
I've realised that I need to reevaluate a lot of things. When I started blogging I was reading almost exclusively adult zombie and post-apocalyptic books and I loved working with independent authors. As in life, things changed, and now I'm reading almost exclusively Young Adult books and only those published by 'big' traditional publishing houses. But then I started thinking about why my tastes have changed so much, and if it even adds to my enjoyment of reading and blogging and I'm now going to put it all out there and say that I'm actually not having as much fun as I used to.
One thing I'm definitely not doing is putting down YA books, or traditional publishing at all. I've read some books in the last 18 months that I would never have come across without blogging and I honestly can't imagine not having read them. I just feel like I've lost my way a little bit, and that I'm bowing to a pressure to be one of the 'cool kids' and read what everyone else is reading, even if it's not what I'm really passionate about.
I contemplated an extended hiatus, and even to stop blogging all together, but neither of those are the things that I really want. So it's time for a change, a spring-clean, a shake up.
The first, and most obvious, thing is a blog redesign. I loved the purple, I loved the black cat and all the fun icons, but it's not really ME. I wear a lot of black myself, I love simplistic design in both blogs and life, so this feels a lot more like a reflection of myself.
Secondly, I'm going to stop worrying that I'm not reading what everyone else is. I don't have to read all the popular up-coming releases to have something important and interesting to say, and even if no one comments it's OK because I'm reading what I want, when I want.
Thirdly, I'm not going to post for the sake of posting. If I miss a day, or two, or even three, that's just the way it's going to be.
Finally, I'm going to read more independently published authors. I've discovered amazing independently published books, and I want to find more and give them the exposure they deserve. I understand that a lot of people don't like independently published books for a myriad of reasons, but I love the thrill of discovering hidden gems.
I really hope all these changes will be for the better, and by being more comfortable in my own skin, I'll be able to get that passion back.